Last night I slept badly, I woke up early this morning without the aid of my alarm--fortunately, because I discovered also that it's broken--and I looked out the window this mid-April day to see grey skies and snow on the ground.
Add to that that this is the girls' spring break and I had hoped to do all sorts of fun things involving the outside with them, and it's supposed to be cold and rainy the whole time. Plus, I can't help but think of this time last year when everything started its downward spiral, and that fills me with anxiety, and combined with a bunch of other things, I just felt low and discouraged to start this Monday.
I wanted to log in to the Scripture memory site I'm in (memorizing one verse every two weeks) because I was a few days late in entering my verse for April 15. I got out my 3 x 5 card spiral where I write all my verses, and as I flipped them over to get to a fresh card, I found this little surprise:
If you can't read that photo, it says in Lucy's best, newly learned cursive:
"For my mom: I love you're [sic] verses! Keep up the good work! I love you! Do you love me? I know you'll say yes."
And my verse for this two weeks is:
Psalm 3:3 "But you, O Lord, are a shield about me, my glory, and the lifter of my head."
For some reason, today that verse sounds a lot like me saying--For God: I love You! Do You love me? I know You'll say yes!"
Then on the way to work, I listened to this song. I listen to the version by the Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir, but here's the original. By the time I got to the stoplight at Spring Brook and Alpine, I was doing my best caucasian interpretation of Calvin Hunt (soloist), no doubt noted by the policeman who pulled up next to me.
So, if you're feeling discouraged today, I hope this lifts your head like it lifts mine: